On fire in the light of day

Jot it down with pen and paper
Every single emotion
I ever felt with you around me
I always felt better
I felt a giddy kind of joy
I felt vulnerable
But safe within the vulnerability
And I felt stupid
For letting myself feel this way.

It didn’t hit me the first time
But it knocked me the second
And I felt my heart become a fool
I am reticent
And I am scared
So I mask it all
I’ll be playing it cool.

I walk around with my head in a haze
I did this for days and days
Dumb struck, thunderstruck
Oh ever optimistic feeling
And feeling shit out of luck